Monster of a in-law

Depressed... Is that even the correct term anymore these days?
I mean sure depression can hit & hit hard but am I just depressed?
This thing; this god-damn monster is killing me. I LOVE my Husband. But his mother makes me want to be in a self induced coma until she’s gone & fed through a tube of 600 calories. Is that so wrong? I mean really? I’m in so much physical pain & emotional pain that I took my normal medications for the day. But have already stolen some ‘Soma’ & ‘Vicodin’ & taken it down ‘Xanax’. I’m just hoping I guess to get high at this point; because sobriety is a waste of existence in my book. I think I seriously need to see both of my shrinks ahead of time. My schedule appointments aren’t until the 29th. But hopefully she’ll be gone by the 22nd. The sad part is I’m at least in little pain & not the tons earlier. But everything is still the same sober way. I hate it.